Well of Time
All of a sudden I look up and the year is full – blocked out through the end of the year with a shattered image across the start of 2012 thats an overlay of about three major ‘possibilities’ and a host of permutations around all of those. The time left to my own choice suddenly became scattered in pinches…
I try to get out for a ‘big’ trip every Mayday and Hallowe’en, pull Christmas at home and … well that usually eats all my time. This year, I had the idea to sit still for the summer and see… then offers impossible to refuse seem to sprout like weeds in my inbox and all of a sudden things like ‘a normal sunday at home’ become unusual times. This is far from a problem, I’m just shocked at how my year suddenly snapped into focus in the past month. This is that effect of ‘time passing more quickly as you get older’ right? I guess like sliding down an inverse parabola, its a barely noticeable slope… then all of a sudden you’re staring straight down and the bottom is flying up to you.
I’ve taken on an ambitious project, one that I’m not quite sure I’m up to – scepticism has been expressed – but I think its worth trying; the worst consequence of failure is just the lost time, success could be glorious… Fortune Favours the Bold and all that. I realise now that the culture shock of the past half year had knocked me into a defensive crouch and I need to shake that off and just get moving again – because to do nothing is to just let the time fall though my fingers – ending up in the same place as to try and fail but without the chance of success.
Let me take a moment to apologise for the inherent cryptic… rambly… nature of all this. Speak ye not aloud on the internets and all that but my point from all this is:
1. decision trees – they’re a great tool to sort out things :)
2. keeping a fairly detailed six/eight month look ahead has saved my bacon repeatedly in the past, I recommend it.